Someone said “When you look at yourself what do you see?” And I wanted to say
“I see an insecure 11 year old girl who is more concerned about what her mom thinks and how other people see her then focusing on her grades or taking care if herself”
And thats true. Thats exactly how I see myself. And its sad that other people besides me feel like that. Because nobody should feel that way. We should love ourselves more then anything ❤️
honestly i think like, i never Really "Felt" like a girl, but i was comfortable being a girl. It's important to mention i perceive gender a little differently, so like, when i was younger, about 9, i got really into sitcoms (which are the straightest thing ever) and thats kinda like, how i found out what relationships were, like how people fell in love and shit, and i was like "ok cool. I want that" but it didn't always occur to me that like i would have to be the "woman" in the relationship (as in i would walk down the isle, i would carry and deliver any future children.. yk, str8 stuff) and i do get that like, not all women walk down the isle and stuff. But i was 9 ok, just go with it.
So yeah, i wasn't aware i was a girl,ummm as i got older, i was exposed to more and more queer media, and i found out that trans people exist, but i was like "that is not for me" because I'm stupid, i Did However start to wonder if maybe i liked girls instead of dudes, but since i thought queerness was still uncommon, i thought to myself "that couldn't be me, I'm not interesting enough to be gay" (i was a dumbass) and THEN
I hit middle school, and at that point i was like "everyone wishes they were born a dude sometimes... right?" And all my cishet white girl friends were like... "no...?" And i was like "oh..." and brushed it off. And i was still like "yeah no I'm not gay... but i feel like being lgbt is like... it resonates with me somehow" because i was stupid, and THEN OMG i had this bestie, and people all thought we were dating, and i was like "wait- do i like her? No... but do i like girls...?" And i just like i was like
Nah nah can't be me... because stupid
And THEN ONE YEAR LATER, i was exposed to the ✨internet✨ and i was like, ayo wait, u can like girls and guys and Then i watched a bunch of porn and i was like "girls are very hot... but so are dudes..." and then i was like "wouldn't it be cool if i was a guy and was datinf another guy" BUT FOR SOME REASON I STILL SAID "nah man, I'll try out EVERY OTHER IDENTITY FIRST"
Rate my playlist music song thing out of 10 (1 being "omg river ur music taste is so bad what the fucking fuck am i listening to what demonic entity possessed you and forced u to make this ass playlist". And 10 being "pretty good")
I cropped out the watermark because some of you clods just can’t handle tiny text in the corner of a screen that barely contributes to anything. Looking at you river.
good night y’all! But before I go to sleep I decided to try and make myself. How i think I look on Picrew. If you know any you want me to try link them please lol
no no. You cannot be on discord. For one they don’t even allow it. For another, I’ve experienced being underage on discord, trust me. Wait until you’re 13.
Kinlist? Psh. Losers with a kinlist. Here’s my kinn diagram- oh and before you go “wtf you’re nothing like these people” remind yourself. You’ve never met me in real life. So you get no right to comment on this. Also Bruno is in the ‘personality/looks’ section bcs, according to my sister, I look like him.
also forgot to add Luz Noceda- I just wasn’t sure where to put her so I didn’t put her at all.
ok don’t tell anyone I’m here. I just wanna explain myself with this one. So pinkie’s backstory is basically this whole thing. Everyone in her family is boring as fric and they work on a rock farm and blah blah. So basically when pinkie gets sad or upset or lonely or bored or whatever, she is now pinkemina diane pie. It makes no sense but I count it as trauma because I don’t give a crap. Like cmon where else am I supposed to fckn put her? I’m pessimistic you think she’s gonna be in personality? Since, when I am upset or whatever, I become… kinda cukoo. I’m very weird. I put here there. So like…. Yeah. I hope that explains things.
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No
Cause no
Cause no
No
nuh uh
This is not good
Seriously what do i do in this situation
I'm going to lose it
Someone said “When you look at yourself what do you see?” And I wanted to say
“I see an insecure 11 year old girl who is more concerned about what her mom thinks and how other people see her then focusing on her grades or taking care if herself”
And thats true. Thats exactly how I see myself. And its sad that other people besides me feel like that. Because nobody should feel that way. We should love ourselves more then anything ❤️
i'm not white, i'm fucking see through at this point
do you believe in evolution?
Yes cause i evolved into a Pikachu yesterday
seriously.
yea 🥺
did anyone else feel… off today. Like something wasn’t right. Or maybe you like developed symptoms of sickness just… outta nowhere.
Idk because that’s 7 people that have said they feel this way and including me that makes 8.
Its cause i got a hair cut
I’m serious river. It’s a yes or no question.
🤷♂️
Who can say
what even is normal right?
Maybe we've all just been feeling abnormal and this is how we're really meant to feel
We'll never know
just does it feel fucking different river THAT IS ALL I WANT TO KNOW DOES IT FEEL DIFFERENT
I DON'T KNOW WHAT DIFFERENT IS SUPPOSED TO FEEL LIKE
STOP YELLIN AT ME
yep
9 people. Like sure out of 7 billion it’s not much but its still weird right?
yeah
yeah
that’s not what I mean and you know it.
just did anything feel off
Non-humans are my profession, whether that's a blessing or a curse.
thats cool as fuck, nice work
You mean it? Thanks!
i. am. so. fucked.
so, on tuesday they announced the "best magnet school in the country"
and that high school wasssss.........
the first option i'm going to apply for.
R U SHITTING ME
OUT OF ALL THE FUCKING MAGNET SCHOOLS
WHY
WHY????????????
NOW I PROBABLY HAVE A LESS CHANCE OF GETTING IN
ME AND MY MOM WERE TALKING ABT IT AND SHE WAS GETTING NERVOUS CAUSE AT THIS SCHOOL YOU HAVE LIKE
A 80 SOMETHING % GETTING ACCEPTED INTO THE COLLEGE YOU WANT
WHWYHWYWHWYWHWYWWHWYWWYWWHWYWHWYW ME
AND LIKE ITS FULLY MAGNET
NO PUBLIC AND MAGNET PROGRAM
AND PROBABLY ANOTHER 500+ STUDENTS ARE GONNA APPLY
OR MORE
BUT I STILL HAVE A CHANCE
I THINK
.....
Dont make a magnet joke river. You're better than that...
STOP IT U WHORE/hj
NOT FUNNY
NO
STRESS
RN
u will do very good in getting into the school
I never had to apply to my hs since its a middle/hs split
But i bet ur gunna do super good
Cause ur smart and know lots about the things that the school is teaching you
And yea
Don't give up hope
wow
so much insperation
tysm river
:D
my cat sits like this
lmaoo
he is kinda funky
LOOK AT THIS RANDOMIZER!!!! SO GOOD RIGHT?
these are the weirdest comments ever..
that is correct
lols
You are corresct
I’ve been laughing at this for the past hour and I’m genuinely concerned for my humor because I think it’s very broken
guys
im going to start country boy slander
and someone knows damn well who this is going towards.
Im going to talk about my trans awakening now
u can't stop me
(Small nsfw warning towards the end)
honestly i think like, i never Really "Felt" like a girl, but i was comfortable being a girl. It's important to mention i perceive gender a little differently, so like, when i was younger, about 9, i got really into sitcoms (which are the straightest thing ever) and thats kinda like, how i found out what relationships were, like how people fell in love and shit, and i was like "ok cool. I want that" but it didn't always occur to me that like i would have to be the "woman" in the relationship (as in i would walk down the isle, i would carry and deliver any future children.. yk, str8 stuff) and i do get that like, not all women walk down the isle and stuff. But i was 9 ok, just go with it.
So yeah, i wasn't aware i was a girl,ummm as i got older, i was exposed to more and more queer media, and i found out that trans people exist, but i was like "that is not for me" because I'm stupid, i Did However start to wonder if maybe i liked girls instead of dudes, but since i thought queerness was still uncommon, i thought to myself "that couldn't be me, I'm not interesting enough to be gay" (i was a dumbass) and THEN
I hit middle school, and at that point i was like "everyone wishes they were born a dude sometimes... right?" And all my cishet white girl friends were like... "no...?" And i was like "oh..." and brushed it off. And i was still like "yeah no I'm not gay... but i feel like being lgbt is like... it resonates with me somehow" because i was stupid, and THEN OMG i had this bestie, and people all thought we were dating, and i was like "wait- do i like her? No... but do i like girls...?" And i just like i was like
Nah nah can't be me... because stupid
And THEN ONE YEAR LATER, i was exposed to the ✨internet✨ and i was like, ayo wait, u can like girls and guys and Then i watched a bunch of porn and i was like "girls are very hot... but so are dudes..." and then i was like "wouldn't it be cool if i was a guy and was datinf another guy" BUT FOR SOME REASON I STILL SAID "nah man, I'll try out EVERY OTHER IDENTITY FIRST"
so i went from (in order)
Aro-ace
Demisexual - demiromantic
Cis bisexual
Demigirl bisexual
Demigirl and lesbian
DemiBOY and pan
Bigender and lesbian
Omnigender and les
Non-binary and pan
Non binary and bi
Non binary and pollysexual
Non binary pollysexual and polyamorous
Non binary and pan again
Non binary and bi
Demigender and gay
Non binary and gay
Demigender and gay AGAIN
Non-binary and gay AGAIN
Trans guy, but use they/them and gay
Trans guy and gay
Trans guy and bi
And yeah
Still wish i was a boy with a dick sometimes yo
i just the strangest thing ever
so rn i'm listening to happy together by Gerard Way and like
i just pointed at the camera my mom watches me and my sister from and said: "The only for me is you-"
then pointed back to myself and said: "And you for me-"
WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME LMAOOOOOOO
MY MOM IS JUST TRYNA WORK AT HOME DEPOT IN PEACE
Rate my playlist music song thing out of 10 (1 being "omg river ur music taste is so bad what the fucking fuck am i listening to what demonic entity possessed you and forced u to make this ass playlist". And 10 being "pretty good")
do it
Or else
https://open.spotify.com/playlist/5C3RBLQY6hPGA92Vcsv8a7?si=hloaYDSAQTyfD_I8iVnl...
my playlist is better 'cause is obvi that i have better taste in music🥱
even my discord bio says it
1/10.
STFU
U DIDN'T EVEN LISTEN TO IT
SO
I CAN ALREADY SENSE WHEN A SONG IS TRASH
https://open.spotify.com/playlist/2SN04NgsmY3bb8di5XOI3K?si=10869e791bdf4625
ME ON THE OTHER HAND??
SO MANY BETTER SONGS.
i refuse to open that spotify link
cause ur to scared to admit that i have better taste in music than you.
theses are the best songs on the playlist
( am also wearing my rush shirt rn )
microphone feind 😍
I'm going to scream.
and shout.
and let it all out.
IDK IF THATS WHAT YOU MEANT BUT YEAH LMAOAOAOALMAOAOOA
lawkins
i am not scared of u
just cause you say ur gonna come after my uhhh knees i think
doesn't make me scared
HA
I AM NOT AFRAID OF ANYTHING!!
I cropped out the watermark because some of you clods just can’t handle tiny text in the corner of a screen that barely contributes to anything. Looking at you river.
Where's the watermark ☹
OH SHUT UP MAN
ITS NOT FUNNY OK ITS JUST ANNOYING I WENT OUT OF MY WAY JUST SO YOU COULD SEE MY GODDAMN MEME AND FOR WHAT
SERIOUSLY IM DONE WITH THIS
IM NOT PLAYING YOUR GAMES
💔
Mf i do not know what a multiple of five is
…I can’t do this right now.
no like i actually don't
Is it like the counting by 5's thing
Hmmm how many times do you think ive restarted this game only to see team leaders...IL GIVE YOU A HINT:TOO MANY TIMES
hey isn’t that event over. How did you??
You can still acess
OH SWEET
good night y’all! But before I go to sleep I decided to try and make myself. How i think I look on Picrew. If you know any you want me to try link them please lol
well well well
what
its a 5th grader but ok
Thanks :)
i thought that picrew only made men with black hair
lol
Why yes i would love to be ur bestie nanami
Alright...im done
i hate katsuki now
LMAOOOOOOOOO
Uh, my spoon?
me
nobody
my mom and dad when they see my grades
picrew dump
GIMME THE LINK FOR THOSE EMOS RN!!! 😡👊😜🤬😡😜😡🤬🙏😝🥺🥺🥺🙏😡😡🙏🥰😍
Naw
AAAAAHHH
I just realized i think my friend flirted with me
On several occasions
Back in 2021
Are u kidding me
HOW DID I MISS THAT
It's true, I recorded..
Its true
I was the camera
its true
i was the bully
“I heard you like funny people. In fact, my entire life is a joke!”
NAH DUDE THIS IS ME TO MY BEST FRIEND LMAOOOO
I made a thing. Well 3 things actually. Names?
UHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH-
last one um
Michael.
NOW GIVE ME THE LINK.
https://picrew.me/image_maker/36529
TYY
HI
HI
Bruh stop associating me with water cause my name is river
It's literally so annoying
I'm not obsessed with the shit
I barely even drink it
shoukd I ask my mom for Discord? I need the app for it to work on my phone but I also know lot of you guys have it soooo
Edit: Besides Natalia saying no (I think that’s how you spell her name) I asked anyways and now I’m waiting on response
no
YOU NEED TO HAVE A REASKBB
what
a reason. A reason why no
Because you're in elementary school
look at rivers comment.
sure. Just, when you get disc, be careful and never accept friend requests from people you don’t know.
ik that
uh you’re under 13-
You can’t be on disc
EXACTLY
LMAO
I DIDNT KNOW OKAY PLEASE LET ME LIVE
Its not like Im finna do anything bad. And it doesnt matter if my mom says I can.
no no. You cannot be on discord. For one they don’t even allow it. For another, I’ve experienced being underage on discord, trust me. Wait until you’re 13.
Make sure u tell her about all the adress leakage that goes on there
Queen that is a whole 5th grader
wait what-
profile says she's "very tall for a 5th grader" and she's 11
So like
Yea
oh- I didn’t know
Folks under 13 aren't allowed on discord anyway
Therapist: “we need to deal with your need to please others.”
“sure, if that’ll make you happy”
Kinlist? Psh. Losers with a kinlist. Here’s my kinn diagram- oh and before you go “wtf you’re nothing like these people” remind yourself. You’ve never met me in real life. So you get no right to comment on this. Also Bruno is in the ‘personality/looks’ section bcs, according to my sister, I look like him.
also forgot to add Luz Noceda- I just wasn’t sure where to put her so I didn’t put her at all.
Also this isn’t set in stone. Might change later.
KATSUKI
😻
i still don't understand why people say I kin Katsuki.
i'm not mean.
Well it’s not always “oh we have same personality” it can be same motivations same past or same feelings or whatever.
most of the reason is cause i have mommy issues
and kats has like
part mommy issues.
oop-
what the fuck is this
you
PINKIE IN TRAUMA-
PFTTTTTT
YOU REMINDED OF THE DAYS I LOVED MLP
I MISS THAT TIME 😭
ok don’t tell anyone I’m here. I just wanna explain myself with this one. So pinkie’s backstory is basically this whole thing. Everyone in her family is boring as fric and they work on a rock farm and blah blah. So basically when pinkie gets sad or upset or lonely or bored or whatever, she is now pinkemina diane pie. It makes no sense but I count it as trauma because I don’t give a crap. Like cmon where else am I supposed to fckn put her? I’m pessimistic you think she’s gonna be in personality? Since, when I am upset or whatever, I become… kinda cukoo. I’m very weird. I put here there. So like…. Yeah. I hope that explains things.
oh-
I would have pinkie in personality and princess luna in traumo tho-
So i was just confused
AHHHHHH HE SO CUTE!
AWWWWWWW
toyota car dealership
AWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW
im just saying random stuff at this point.
ACTUALLY IT'S BETERA SUBERU 😡😡🤬🤬😡🤬😡🤬😡
BRUH
HA! I MADE THIS ONE!
//g.co/doodle/awyyppg
Pls jojn
should I make this my new pfp then find a blurry background for it?
If so I’d prob change my name again lol
Edit: I DID IT AND IM SO HAPOY
Edit 2: IT WKNT SAVE MY NEW USERNAME EVERYTIME I HIT SAVE
heres the photo I would use for the background btw
i drew this