Monster Girl Maker

IM COMING KOKORO

TW: mental disorders and problems

I know I talk about my problems quite a bit and that it might come off as annoying to a lot of people but since I don't really have the confidence to say any of this stuff to people I know face to face people through the screen are the only people I can talk to.It gives me a sense of comfort that I can't see your face or hear your voice and you can't hear mine as we talk. Anyway I've actually grown self concious about my voice because as a child I used to love singing and people would always tell me I didn't have the potential to sing. I eventually stopped singing as much and only sang in private where no one could hear. To make matters worse my music teacher miss... Ella... yeah Ella was the most favoritism driven bastard ever and it really didn't help. I would audition for things but she never gave me apart and said I wasn't good enough but my voice sounds great through a mic while the person she picked had a great voice just not when it comes to microphone singing. I knew Ms Ella was a favoritist but I still let her get to me. Eventually I thought "if when I sing I don't sound good. What happens when I talk." so I recorded my voice and as a dumb child I believed that this was what I sounded like and what every one else heard when I spoke. I started speaking less.Obviously now I know that isn't what I sound like but old habits die hard,I still don't talk much and every time there's an imperfection in my voice I obsess over it. In kindergarten I didn't make any friends because I didn't talk. I just did as I was told and kept my mouth shut even during recess I didn't go to play with other kids, I sat on the swings alone and did nothing. Moving on from that I was recently diagnosed with GAD or Generalized Anxiety Disorder, an anxiety disorder where I feel a constant anxiety over the simplest and stupidest of things. Things others wouldn't care about hence the dumb triggers.I was also diagnosed with Self Mutism which is pretty self explanitory. In an environment where I don't feel safe my brain goes "no no no. We can't talk to the people here." and doesn't allow me to talk unless I'm forced to. Fun fact,in a situation that raises my anxiety levels I move around or play with something and just start laughing with no control over it. I just laugh, it's my body's response to feeling a negative emotion, to cancel it out and try and replace it with a happy emotion, just start laughing, laughing fixes everything, it doesn't it really doesn't but my subconcious says it does,it feels a need to be happy. In situations where most would be balling their eyes out I'd laugh through my tears as if they weren't there. Okay that's enough for today. That's a lot.

Fun Facts about Queen w/Queen (bonus round cause I forgot crap like the idiot I am):

1. I own a shell collection.

2. I am a perfectionist and I will not stand the end of this list being a number that doesn't end with 0.

3. I have the most dumb triggers in history.

4. I'm an anti-social introvert but when I'm with THE SQUAD I say weird things and scream til my lungs run out of air.

5. I embody r/im14andthisisdeep even though I'm just an idiot 15 year old with possible brain damage.

6. I am tall because I WANT TO! SURPRISE MOTHERF-

7. I would kill for Unnus Annus to come back but I must respect Memento Mori so I won't.

8. I am a designated trash gamer :D

9. I don't have Minecraft and I'm mad about it.

10. I eat chips on a daily because fitness is my passion :D

"hangin out where I don't belong, it's nothing new to me.."

(I can't handle change by Roar)

does anyone here have Everskies?

Good GOD i love her. I love her so much 

I ate Takis today. Did I fix my diet after that? No. How did I ruin my stomach? Everything I ate today was in no way shape or form healthy. Am I in pain because of my dumb actions? Very. That's it ladies and gentlemen and all other genders. Thank you for coming to my Ted Talk

Info:

Name: Haruka 

(Japanese origin) – this name can either mean “faraway” or ‘distant”.

Pʀᴏɴᴜɴᴄɪᴀᴛɪᴏɴ ; Haru-ka

Sᴘᴇᴄɪᴇs ; ɆⱤⱤØⱤ- ₣łⱠɆ ₦Ø₮ ₣ØɄ₦Đ

Gᴇɴᴅᴇʀ ; ɆⱤⱤØⱤ- ₣łⱠɆ ₦Ø₮ ₣ØɄ₦Đ

Aɢᴇ ; 17 or 18

Bɪʀᴛʜ Dᴀᴛᴇ ; ɆⱤⱤØⱤ- ₣łⱠɆ ₦Ø₮ ₣ØɄ₦Đ

Oᴄᴄᴜᴘᴀᴛɪᴏɴ ; student

Nᴀᴛɪᴏɴᴀʟɪᴛʏ ; ɆⱤⱤØⱤ- ₣łⱠɆ ₦Ø₮ ₣ØɄ₦Đ

Aᴄᴄᴇɴᴛ ; none

Zᴏᴅɪᴀᴄ ; Gemini

Hᴏᴍᴇ ; Somewhere in calafornia

Eᴅᴜᴄᴀᴛɪᴏɴ ; high school

Hᴏʙʙɪᴇs ; cake testing, reading, drawing

Hᴀʙɪᴛ﹙s﹚ ; zoning out

Aᴅᴅɪᴄᴛɪᴏɴ﹙s﹚ ; candy/ sweets in general

Pʜᴏʙɪᴀ﹙s﹚ ; social interaction (sometimes)

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Lᴏᴠᴇ Lɪғᴇ

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Sᴇxᴜᴀʟɪᴛʏ ; aro

Pᴀʀᴛɴᴇʀ; none

Pʀᴇғᴇʀʀᴇᴅ Pᴀʀᴛɴᴇʀ ; none

Pᴀsᴛ Lᴏᴠᴇʀs ;ɆⱤⱤØⱤ- ₣łⱠɆ ₦Ø₮ ₣ØɄ₦Đ

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Rᴇʟᴀᴛɪᴏɴsʜɪᴘs

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Pᴀʀᴇɴᴛs ; ɆⱤⱤØⱤ- ₣łⱠɆ ₦Ø₮ ₣ØɄ₦Đ

Sɪʙʟɪɴɢs ; an older brother

Cʜɪʟᴅʀᴇɴ ; none

Fʀɪᴇɴᴅs ;ɆⱤⱤØⱤ- ₣łⱠɆ ₦Ø₮ ₣ØɄ₦Đ

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Pʜʏsɪᴄᴀʟ

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Hᴇɪɢʜᴛ ; ɆⱤⱤØⱤ- ₣łⱠɆ ₦Ø₮ ₣ØɄ₦Đ

Wᴇɪɢʜᴛ ; ɆⱤⱤØⱤ- ₣łⱠɆ ₦Ø₮ ₣ØɄ₦Đ

Bᴜɪʟᴅ ;ɆⱤⱤØⱤ- ₣łⱠɆ ₦Ø₮ ₣ØɄ₦Đ

Eʏᴇs Cᴏʟᴏᴜʀ ; gold

Hᴀɪʀ Cᴏʟᴏᴜʀ ; dark red

Sᴋɪɴ ; pale white

Cʟᴏᴛʜᴇs ; Black shirt, top hat, white hoodie

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Aʙsᴛʀᴀᴄᴛ

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Personality ; shy, empty, not really talkative, intimidating, they give off this weird vibe, two faced

Lɪᴋᴇs ; candy, reading, magic

Lᴏᴠᴇs ; ⬆

Eɴᴊᴏʏs; being by theirselfs, magic

Sᴋɪʟʟᴇᴅ Aᴛ ; magic

Pᴏsɪᴛɪᴠᴇ Aᴛᴛʀɪʙᴜᴛᴇ ; ɆⱤⱤØⱤ- ₣łⱠɆ ₦Ø₮ ₣ØɄ₦Đ

Dɪsʟɪᴋᴇs ; people, crowed spaces, being stared at

Hᴀᴛᴇs ; ⬆

Nᴇɢᴀᴛɪᴠᴇ Aᴛᴛʀɪʙᴜᴛᴇ ; their slightly intimidating

Rivar is at thier granpfas house for lunchws

i make

Me

Ghost gets on there twice cos meloria is a dope album

Well then